Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Trauma on the school front

Today marked a monumental moment in my baby boys life.  His true first day of pre-school.  The day started off slowly and pretty shakey.  when he woke up all he could do was cry.  Not sure what was wrong we got some breakfast, watched an episode of Handy Manny and began to talk more about where he got to go today.  We talked about singing songs, playdough, circle time, the kitchen that his teacher has in his room....all prepping the little guy for what definitely wouldn't be the most traumatizing experience in his life, but something mommy will remember as being a not so happy one. 



I have done some challenging things in my life so far with Jackson.  I have watched him leave me after only being with him for a few hours, carried him off to surgery at a couple days old and continue to do so as is needed, but today.  Today was a different type of difficult.  Today was optional.  Not something I have dealt with before.  HE was so excited to get out of the car and put on his backpack.  So excited for everything, until the teachers came out to get him and he grasped my leg and began to scream as I told him I loved him and he would have so much fun with Miss Charlene.  As I grabbed Avenlea and walked away the screams were so loud....I am sure louder to me than to anyone else in the parking lot.  As Avenlea and I began to drive away, I started to question our decision for sending him to preschool this year.  But then I remembered his excitement about going to school for the past three months and that today was only the realization that he had to do it by himself.  I am sure this week, and possibly next week too, are going to be a little emotional and difficult.  But when I look at how far he has come and what he has been through, I find total Joy in thinking about what he will be continuing to share with me as he learns more and more at school. 

5 comments:

Jackie said...

You're right Nic - this is a whole new ballgame! But you're thinking on the right track - it will be a great experience for Jackson. I've held those screaming first day kiddos many times - whether it lasts for 2 day or 2 weeks it will get better for both of you! Congratulations to Jackson and to you on beginning a new chapter in your lives!

Rene said...

It will get easier... But it is really hard when they don't want to leave you. But it will be really good for him to be around others. And also good for you to have that one on one time with your other little one too.

Kara Lynn said...

Oh goodness!!! Not sure how I would handle that... I'm sure it took a lot to not turn around, grab him and say "Just forget it!". He is definitely by far the cutest kid there... cannot believe how flippin' cute he is in those glasses. Will pray he did well. What time do you pick him up?

Laura said...

Awww! That's so hard. I hope the rest of his day was great, and that he comes home with lots of fun stories to tell!

The Lantzes said...

oh my word! I can't believe he is in school already! That is CRAZY! How did you handle it? What did he think when you picked him up?