Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Trauma on the school front
I have done some challenging things in my life so far with Jackson. I have watched him leave me after only being with him for a few hours, carried him off to surgery at a couple days old and continue to do so as is needed, but today. Today was a different type of difficult. Today was optional. Not something I have dealt with before. HE was so excited to get out of the car and put on his backpack. So excited for everything, until the teachers came out to get him and he grasped my leg and began to scream as I told him I loved him and he would have so much fun with Miss Charlene. As I grabbed Avenlea and walked away the screams were so loud....I am sure louder to me than to anyone else in the parking lot. As Avenlea and I began to drive away, I started to question our decision for sending him to preschool this year. But then I remembered his excitement about going to school for the past three months and that today was only the realization that he had to do it by himself. I am sure this week, and possibly next week too, are going to be a little emotional and difficult. But when I look at how far he has come and what he has been through, I find total Joy in thinking about what he will be continuing to share with me as he learns more and more at school.